So, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this little piece of the Internet lately. That is kind of the reason I haven’t been posting, um, at all. You see, I’m contemplating whether or not to end my time here – or make some changes.
Years ago, before Husband and I got married, I asked him if he thought we would ever run out of things to say to each other. He made the expected “guy” comment about how I, as a woman, could NEVER run out of things to say. Then I pushed him off the couch. Well, it’s almost 12 years later and, no, we haven’t run out of things to say.
But, I’m beginning to think I have to run out of things to write.
I have made a conscious effort NOT to write about certain things or people, namely my job or certain members of my family. We all know what happens when you write about your job, and while my family would provide HOURS of interesting reading (and shouts of “I can’t believe s/he/they DID that shit!”), I believe you should not purposely embarrass family – no matter how much they do it to themselves anyway.
With The Swimmy, I am starting to wonder if it is time to start respecting her privacy and looking towards the future. Benjamite is only 5 months old so his littleness is still fair game. There are several times lately where I have stopped myself from posting something about her life because while I’d like to keep a journal of her adventures, I’m not sure I want her to live them out in the public domain.
Before Husband and I dated, I was driving along in my car, a bit bored with my single life, and wished out loud to the social gods for (and I quote), “a soap opera life” – just to add some excitement. Well, I got what I asked for. And it was horrible. HORRIBLE.
I have never again asked for anything except “Normal”.
Well, that’s what I have. It took quite some time, but I have it. Life is terrific. I love my kids, my husband and I have a marriage others envy and I have a job I love to go to – until I am told I no longer have to work and then SEE YA, boys.
I’m not sure my life is interesting enough to chronicle any longer. Most folks don’t care to read about “happy” for any length of time, and I am a bit weary on ranting. That’s not to say the occasional asshat retail employee or freeway driver doesn’t make for good posting, but that’s not content to build a blog on.
I have very cemented views on the world. I live my life fairly easily in black and white – partly because living a life of “grey” means you don’t know what you believe or how you want to live your life. But, unfortunately, my views are not popular (and by that I mean “forgotten”) any longer in today’s world. It’s a shame, really, because I think if more people adopted this way of life, we’d solve a lot of problems for marriages and families – especially for children.
I’ve made some of my views pretty clear here. I could do that more, but I’m not sure anyone wants to hear about them. And I’m not necessarily going to build my own little soapbox – there are others who are doing just fine spreading those lessons without my help. Folks I respect and trust to do just that.
I’ve answered questions that were emailed to me, but I’ve answered them privately. I am considering answering them publicly and changing the direction of this site to a marriage- and family-oriented site with a few less stories about me, and more of YOUR stories.
So – now I’ve mused all this “out loud” and “on purpose”. I’d like to hear from you guys either in the public comments or via email what you think. You guys are the ones who take time out of your day to stop by – and so far you’ve done that over 25,000 times this year. I thank you for your support and encouragement – and I thank you in advance for your input.
I still have things to say – and so do you – I’m just wondering if we have things to say together that might make a difference in the world.
Updated to add: Ya’ll, it’s National De-Lurking Week 2007. Now you HAVE to comment. It’s the law.